Orphans

One thing that I am learning about orphans is that no matter how happy they seem on the outside, inside there is so much pain.

Remember, I am not an expert just a new acquaintance to this sad reality of orphans. And it may only be these orphans, kids who's parents have abandoned them for one reason or another. These kids do not have loving families to go home with. Even the ones whose parents did not leave them by choice still had no one else who loved them enough to take them. These kids in one way or another feel abandoned. And they are. At lest until someone comes to claim them as their own, like Joe and I.

Until you spend time with them, you do not realize how deep the hurt goes. You also don't know just how much pain the care givers deal with. It can sometimes be overwhelming. Like tonight.

The two girls that have been in the orphanage since they were very young, and are not eligable for adoption shared their diary with me. They told me that the words they wrote were how they feel and I just about lost it.

Why am I here without a parent or parents, when other's have theirs, one girl wrote. Why am I alone? They both voiced the opinion that if they could they would find their mother, just to see her face. Is it like mine, she writes, if I look like her, will I have a life like her's? Will I leave my child, like she left hers?

It is so hard, because we can't do anything.

After we talked we had to leave to go to the Taldy Korgan English club. The boys were asked to attend and speak to the club, as they do not get many American Teenagers here. We thought maybe a few kids would be there and to our surprise the room was full. Really full! Jonathan and Jameson did really good and we were proud of them. Their first public speaking engagement! It helps when no one has ever been to America, ha-ha!

No, they did great representing America, at least the teenage side! After they finished everyone wanted to take a picture with them! It was really special. The only bad part was we were running late, as the kids at the orphanage didn't let us leave on time. It takes about 15 to 20 min just to get out the door. We are blessed they like having us.

Two of the girls from the orphanage came with us, and it was the first time they had ever participated in anything like it. They were very uncomfortable, but they got to see what the internet was and they even emailed us a letter.

Hopefully our being here will start the process of them seeing something other
than just their school and the orphanage. The internet can be amazing for a kid
whose world is so small. One of the caregivers is going to take them so they
can have some guidence. Who knows what will happen!

Alena is awesome, although I wish we could see her alone more. Then again, we shall see her everyday soon!


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The Moss Family.